I know I've said this many times. But I just have to say this again, that life is always a matter of making decisions.
There is this du'a from Hisnul Muslim that I used to recite, and I hope it will be of your usual to start reciting it too. I love this du'a so much as it shows how weak we are as a servant to Allah. It contains so much of tawakkul. Here is the du'a
Ya hayyu ya qayyoom, birahmatika astagheeth, aslih lee sha/nee kullah, wala takilnee ila nafsee tarfata ayn
‘O Ever Living, O Self-Subsisting and Supporter of all, by Your mercy I seek assistance, rectify for me all of my affairs and do not leave me to myself, even for the blink of an eye.’
Subhanallah. Even for the blink of an eye? The Prophet saw really taught us something- our weakness and dependency to no one but Allah.
There are reasons why Allah gave us brain, so we are able to think *wisely*.There are reasons why we are the khalifah, and why Allah did not choose animals to make this world a better place. Well, if we want to take one's strength as the criterion to be a khalifah, I believe Allah would have chosen the lions, or the elephants. But He didn't.
It is due to the reason that we have intellect that Allah chose us to live in this world, to serve Him and to do good to the mankind.
So when I was given options, I really want to think again and again before coming up with decisions.
And the decision that I will make will inshaAllah, I hope is pleasing to Allah's sight. Life is a mystery. And I'm taking the steps to slowly exploring it- little by little. Because at the end of the day, what I really want is for Allah to be pleased with me. Wallahi, I'm just His servant, I own nothing. And I sincerely ask Allah to guide me in whatever decision that I'm about to make.
These past few weeks have been amazing. I might not have my job yet, but alhamdulillah I met so many beautiful people during this jobless time, or whatever you want to call this period is. Or 'zaman pengangguran?' Well, doesn't matter.
Thing is, I came to realize something. We might think that the person we meet is just another person but the reality is, they are not. All the people around us, they are AMAZING. I met these people randomly, had a chat and somehow they just shared their beautiful stories that left me in awe.
And there are many other incidents and conversations that I had with other people that are so inspiring and an eye-opener too. It was up to a point that I had to question my self. Why didn't I hear these stories before? How come I wasn't destined to meet these people long ago?
Until I finally got the answer. That it is not the matter of when and where that I meet these people, but rather it is the matter within me. I was too busy thinking about me, me and me until I forgot about the existence of the beautiful, kind-hearted people around me. It was always hey-I'm- saying-something-important-you-have-to-listen that I eventually do not know how to listen to what other people have to say. And amazingly, after I realized that, and started to really listen, my life seems to be more vibrant and colourful.
So if there's a message I want you to understand now, is to never take the people around us for granted. Understand them, listen to them. Each and everyone of them carries a story. The story that somehow will make you want to change and be certain in your decision. There are reasons why Allah send them and make you notice their presence in your life. It is now time to explore. Didn't we just say that life is a mystery? Well it is not a mystery until we venture out and start exploring!
IZ: Funny that I'm writing this with nothing in my mind at first. I just let my fingers enjoying their little dance on this keyboard while at the same time letting my heart to talk to myself. Strangely they synchronised so well until the very last word..