3 Minggu Yang Berlalu

Hmm dah 3 minggu saya menjalani kehidupan sbg pelajar tahun kedua jurusan pergigian. Jujur saya katakan, bahang stress tu dah mula terasa. Serasa baru saja nak adapt dengan sistem pembelajaran masa tahun 1 dulu, sistem pembelajaran sekarang ni is totally different! Kebanyakan masa kami dihabiskan di lab dan semua orang berlumba-lumba nak siapkan projek secepat mungkin.

Kalau dibandingkan dengan tahun 1 dulu, saya akui tahun 1 juga memang mencabar. Tapi mencabarnya tu bukan dari segi kesuntukan masa untuk menyiapkan projek dsb, (okay la mungkin ada sikit kesuntukan masa dan penat berulang alik dari fakulti pergigian ke fakulti perubatan) tapi mencabarnya itu dari segi subjek yang dipelajari susah nak score, ditambah pula dengan sistem grading lecturer yang strict. Adoi.. memang menangis la masa mula-mula dapat result exam dulu. Tapi bila masa berlalu pergi, kita pun mula belajar. Mula faham kehendak lecturer dan kehendak soalan dan sedar tak sedar, dah habis pun year 1. Saya tamat tahun pertama, alhamdulillah. Tapi tidaklah begitu cemerlang. Walau macam manapun, saya bersyukur, sebab kalau dibandingkan, masih ada lagi rakan-rakan yang belum lagi dikurniakan rezeki untuk berjaya.

Year 1 class, 2008/09

Naik tahun kedua, saya jangkakan keseronokan yang digembar-gemburkan senior. Tapi sampai hari ini pun saya belum temui keseronokan tu. Bila di lab, semua orang tak kisah kiri dan kanan lagi, yang penting, projek mesti disiapkan secepat mungkin. Dan saya, yang hand skill nya tak berapa bagus ni memang selalu ketinggalan. Apatah lagi bila cubicle-mate kita dah laju meninggalkan kita. Kerja yang mula-mula ok dah jadi tak ok sebab panik yang mendatang. Bila tunjuk kat lecturer hasil kerjanya, memang kena bambu la. Tapi itu hak mereka nak marah. They expect the best from their students. Hmm tapi kira okla kena marah dengan lecturer daripada kena marah dengan patient nanti. Silap haribulan kena saman, lagi naya.

Selama 20 tahun roh dan jasad saya bersatu, saya cukup kenal siapa diri saya. Saya bukanlah dilahirkan sebagai seorang yang gifted dan cemerlang dalam banyak bidang. Apa-apa yang saya dapat, saya berusaha keras untuk itu dan selebihnya hanya Allah yang menentukan sama ada saya layak atau tidak mendapat kejayaan. Walaupun kadang-kadang cemburu tengok kawan-kawan yang cemerlang walaupun tak berusaha mana, solat dan ibadahnya pun tunggang langgang, tapi masih lagi lebih berjaya daripada saya. Namun lepas tu cepat-cepat beristighfar. Ini semua rancangan Allah. Siapalah kita nak mempersoalkan semua itu. Walaupun perjalanan hidup saya tidak selancar orang lain, di penghujungnya nanti saya pasti akan ada juga sinarnya.

Kadang-kadang selalu juga tanya diri sendiri, kenapa ambil course ni in the 1st place. Saya sebenarnya dah lama sedar yang hand skills saya tak berapa bagus. Nak kata minat pun tak la minat sangat sebab memang tak ada pendedahan tentang course ni masa di sekolah dan asasi dulu. Ibu dan ayah pun tak pernah paksa. Cumanya saya rasakan memang dah tertulis di Lauh Mahfuz saya di sini, belajar tentang gigi, bahagian mulut, kepala dan leher. Maka saya mengikut gerak hati saya untuk memilih bidang ni dan kalau orang tanya kenapa ambil, saya sememangnya tak tau kenapa. Kehendak itu datang dengan sendiri.

My cubicle- mate, hsin yuan with her dummy

Sekarang saya dah pilih jalan ini, seharusnya saya tak menoleh lagi ke belakang walaupun kadang-kadang terasa saya tak mampu lagi berdiri, sebab Allah dah janji, takkan bebankan kita dengan sesuatu yang tak mampu kita hadapinya. Tentang hand skills, inshaAllah ia boleh diperbaiki, cuma saya perlukan sedikit masa untuk itu. Maka dengan itu, saya takkan berputus asa, terus pandang ke depan dan berusaha memberi khidmat dan rawatan terbaik kepada masyarakat yang meletakkan kepercayaan kepada saya untuk meneroka oral cavity mereka!

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The martyrdom of Allahyarhamah Marwa Al-Sherbini

Innalillah..I was startled and so sad when I read about what happened to our sister by faith, Marwa Al-Sherbini. She was a victim of racism in the country of German,that is well-known for its hi-tech stuff and so called civilised people yet has very very low respect for human rights. The late Marwa, 3-month pregnant was stabbed in a courtroom by a man who insulted her religion, calling her terrorist and tried to remove the hijab she wore. But what hurts me the most is that there was nobody, in that full courtroom, to stop this man from stabbing her. It was 18 stabs for god's sake! Oh yeah, the policeman was there, he let out a gun shot too, but it was not directed to the guy who attacked her, but instead, to her husband who tried to save his wife. Well congratulations mr. policeman, you sure do get yourself promoted for your SMART act and EMPATHY that lies in your heart.

Alhamdulillah this such case has never happened in my country, or at least I have never heard about it and wishes it will never happen. As the number of muslims in this world is growing, I realize that the hatred of non-muslims towards the muslims are also increasing. During my free time, I just love to watch the talks by muslim scholars and nasheeds at youtube and there will always be people who make fun and insult the muslims although the video has got nothing to do with them. A video about a boy reading the Quran and I just dont know how on earth can they make a conclusion saying that innocent boy is going to turn up into a terrorist one day. Err I beg your pardon, there is no evidence for you to say so and for your information, those people who read the Quran and really understand about it are the ones who are not going to become a terrorist. But somehow, I also feel pity to these people (the kafirs) because some of them dont know about Islam and just let themselves being manipulated by the western media.

I believe that many of us realize about this. Thus, it left us with one question. What are we gonna do about it? Now that we know many non-muslims dont like us, make efforts to change that! Nabi Muhammad s.a.w had left us 2 precious things that are going to guide us for the rest of ourlives; the Quran and sunnah. By understanding the Quran and practising the sunnah, each and every one of us will have a peaceful life and beautiful attitude. Go check nabi Muhammad's sirah. He never insulted the musyrikin who insulted him, but instead showing them his most beautiful attitude by visiting them when they sick and helped them when they need help. Therefore, we should never pray for the people who insult Islam to rot in hell though we really want them to, but pray to Allah so that Allah will shower them with hidayah and forgive their ignorance.

Though in the case of Marwa I know she must be a good muslim woman and tried to practise the religion as best as she could, then you may wonder why still there are people who hate her? I dont have the answer for that, but Allah does. He is the one who knows what exactly in our hearts and minds right now. But hmm I dont know, that man probably hold a grudge towards her about something. Well even muslims and muslims still hold grudge on each other today, let alone muslims and non-muslims. To Allyarhamah Marwa, may Allah grant you jannah and I just want you to know that your martyrdom will always become my inspiration- to stand firm by our faith no matter what awaits us. May your soul rest in peace...

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Just getting started.

Bismilaahirrahmaanir Rahim. Assalamualaikum wbt. Finally! Hehe yeah..I have my own blog! Selama ni asyik tengok orang punye blog je, mungkin ada sesuatu yg boleh saya tuliskan kat sini. Dan harap2 intipatinya bermanfaat inshaAllah.

Saya mungkin tak sehebat sesetengah sahabat di luar sana yg fikirannya subhanAllah.. kritis n kreatif! Dan blog ni pun guna bahasa rojak je haa. But it is really good to think that we may share our thoughts on certain things n when we are getting older, we will get the chance to take a look back at what have we wrote n plus,it may also be useful to our next generation to know what their grandparents did n had in mind when they were young! Haha.. like they really want to know ;p

I'm currently in my semester break right now and inshaAllah if everything goes well, I will begin my 2nd year of studies this 6th of July. I dont really know what's 2nd year life is going to be, tapi dengar2nye orang cakap seronok. U will meet your new friend, which is the dummy n u will get the chance to name them with cute names too. Dummy ni macam patients kita la lebih kurang, cuma dia x bernyawa je.. Lectures will start at 8 am until 1 pm n at 2pm, mesti dah ada kat optech lab n class finishes at 5 pm. Err okay.. now that does not sound really fun at all. But I'll let u know the truth once I've finished my 2nd year.. kalau masih ingat lagi inshaAllah :)

So okay, rasanya sampai sini dulu. Nanti bosan pulak asyik baca psl diri saya yg entah orang nak tau entah tidak. I actually want to make this blog as an educational one, tapi tu lah.. ilmu pun tak banyak lagi, but I will try to keep gaining the knowledge as much as I can.. and yeah, i'll put up stories too sometimes. Take care then. Wassalam :)

IZ: Esok holiday ke Desaru, Johor. Semoga segalanya dipermudahkan. Ameen :))

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